Visited a couple of archeological sites today… the most ridiculous was the site in the Jordan Valley where born-again Christians come to get baptised in the ‘holy’ water. Their bathing section had little fences like in the zoo for hippos… I suddenly felt like I was in a human zoo. Big business too all these ’emotional’ tourists buying dirty water by the bottle, paying for symbolic and imaginary things.
The Roman city at Bet Sheba and the 6th century synagogue with the hodge-podge mosaic in Bet Alpha looked vaguely interesting. Looked at a date palm plantation close up, pomegranates and orchards.
The 43C heat almost got me today… at one point I was so dizzy, nauseous, headachy and heat stressed I thought I might faint… but managed to survive in the end by making my whole head wet every 5 minutes. Don’t want any more heat!!!
Now in Jerusalem… at first it looks chaotic, rude and nasty, hope these are only superficial observations. Whole night I haven’t seen another single woman on the streets without a man, without several small kids and a pregnant belly. Obviously the state of Israel is competing with Arab fertility. The result is lots of frustrated and stressed couples.. guys who want to fuck me with their eyes and women who want to kill me. Lovely is what I call this.
I feel insulted, patronised and demeaned by the looks I get. So far nothing obviously nasty, just people trying to take advantage of me…
Apparently there’s an Israeli saying.. ‘I live if I bother’… in other words I am sure of my existence as long as I have inconvenienced someone or made them angry. I understand why this is the case but I find it revolting.
If only they knew about my life… they wouldn’t believe any of it. It’s simply beyond their world. I’m pretty sure which is the better one too.
Israel truly seems like an oxymoron… living in a horribly hostile world: surrounded by Arabs with weapons and living on a Moon-like landscape with barely any water… it obviously shouldn’t be inhabited, but… well, Isreal seems both inevitable and impossible. I think that’s the best way of putting it.
If I lived here I’d escape. I might struggle with my conscience but eventually I’d choose emotional, mental and physical survival, freedom, secularism and the kind of individual rights, space and standard of living that Australia provides. Don’t get me wrong, I understand why Israel is the way it is, I just can’t stand it personally.
Next 5 days in Jerusalem… not sure I can stand intellectually confronting either religion or the Holocaust… any ideas on where I can go to escape these and find intelligent progressive company? Please help! I’m sure it’s here I just need to find it.
Signing off… trying to be happy but feeling rather bitter sweet atm.