I’m back in Sydney and had a nice long sleep. I was so happy to arrive back to Sydney and I’m overflowing with gratitude for my life here.
Chris and I weathered the 30+ hour Budapest-Amsterdam-Bangkok-Sydney journey pretty well. My cousin took us to the airport in Hungary and my mum picked us up in Sydney. My mum tidied up my apartment and filled up my fridge!
There’s nothing like going to the other side of the world to give you a fresh perspective on your life. This trip, again, gave me the opportunity to reflect on all the wonderful things in my life: beautiful loving people around me, a gorgeous apartment and city, good quality existence on all fronts and an easy life compared to how most of the rest of humanity live.
Of course, we all know these things but travelling to far-away really brings it home.
As much as I love Hungary I also cannot imagine my life without the level of various qualities of life and opportunities I enjoy in Sydney.
These are the needs that living in Sydney fulfills in my life that I couldn’t achieve the same way in Hungary:
Equality, decency, ease, celebration, integration, assurance, choice, opportunity to contribute, stimulation, kindness, acknowledgment, connection, acceptance, respect, care, consideration, mutuality, inclusion, warmth, empathy, support, clarity, authenticity, freedom, purpose, hope, integrity, spaciousness, joy, humour, awareness, understanding, peace of mind, harmony, trust, wellbeing, nourishment, safety, beauty, peace, growth, wholeness.
In order to express all the needs that weren’t met (and some that were) and all the bad (and some good) feelings I have been through, mostly in Budapest, I would probably have to write a book, and one day I might just do that. Most of the above needs were not met one awy or another and I feel a profound sadness and anger about this. On the other hand expressing them brings some clarity and also appreciation of my life in Sydney which fulfils all the above needs one way or another. Thinking of this brings up lots of warmth, gratitude, connectedness and a sense of deep satisfaction.
I’ll try to process all the above one bit at a time… and be very very grateful for all the wonderful opportunities I have in my life that help me fulfill my essential needs and to connect and live in harmony, prosperity and opportunity.